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What a broad topic. Uh, I am Joy Subaran, 5'2", Filipino, thick black hair, always painted fingernails, has really weird mannerisms. I was born in So Cal, but didn't stay there for long and now living in Tracy.

Other things about me... I love animals a little to much. I've never came across a dog I don't think is cute, except for one (BEL, who I heard is the demon dog itself). I'm always zoned out or day dreaming, this annoys other people because it usually means I'm not paying attention to them. Haha. I'm a very happy person, please don't rain on my parade. I like to walk around town when I have nothing to do in the mornings. I always have really weird in-depth dreams. Without my friends I wouldn't be happy, I would be nothing. Life is constantly changing for me, every couple months I feel like my life always flips so much.

My biggest flaw is the social anxiety I sometimes get, I hate being thrown into a room with a ton of people I don't know. I don't like small talk, filler conversation means nothing so why have it? I hate when people blabber endlessly about thing I will never remember or even remotley care about just so they can fill the silence. Silence is a virtue sometimes. When I listen to a song, I really try to listen to it, all the instruments in the background, the meaning of lyrics. I think I'm afraid of falling in love. Lady GaGa is my hero, forever.

My favorite qualities about myself is having a huge heart, compassion, and loyalty. I don't mind going out of my way for people I care about. I'm a people-pleaser, and I'm not sure if that hinders me or helps me. Sometimes I just like to be by myself. I don't know what I want to be when I grow up. For a while, I was stuck in a Peter Pan mindset, but I've gotten over that.

I'm just really weird.