heartbeats.

Things are back in swing. I love how my life does this to me. I freak out to much, and whenever these little bursts of discontent end, I always look back at that bad week or two and laugh. Life is so beautiful and precious. I can't stand wasting a second of it. I think it's enough just to know that you are loved. Nothing else really matters.

My sister is home for the holidays. I didn't even know she was coming down til yesterday morning! Craziness. I'm definitely feeling the holiday spirit this year, for the first time in yeeears. I just feel so close to my family again, everything is just really warm and nice. Idk how to describe it, haha.

I felt my heart beat the other day. I'm still reeling from the adrenaline it caused. Crazy how these things are so unexpected and just whack you in the head when you least expect it, but in a good way. I decided not to pursue it because that's just not what I want right now. But it's nice to feel that kind of thing again, to know I'm capable of it. Yeah (:

I've been listening to a lot of Bright Eyes, Judy Garland, Billie Holiday, and Tegan and Sara lately. It fits my Winter so much.

I've been working a lot lately, it's been nice. So glad I have tonight off and all of Saturday. Party time! I kindov broke my promise of not drinking until New Year's. Oh well, everything is okay in moderation I guess. Ha.

I think I'm gonna start writing less in this, and putting up more pictures instead.

I love my life.