cause i honestly believed in you.

Work was really fun today, surprisingly. I'm gonna miss working at this Cold Stone when/if I leave.

Today I was listening to this really old lady talking to this younger lady talk to her about her life. She was talking about how she was so in love with this guy who was so handsome, but he ended up abusing her and doing crack. And, the younger lady she was talking to was going through something similar. I don't know why, but hearing them talk really touched me. When I'm older, I want to look back and feel my life had meaning. I've always thought that I could do something really amazing for the greater good of the world. Honestly, latley I've been in such a cloud of cynicism and I hate it. Everything used to look so different to me.

I miss hanging out with my friends. I feel like I gave a lot of that up. I'm going to try more to spend more time with them. Especially Amanda and Nicole. I like, never hang out with them anymore and they're my 2 closest friends. I'm sorry.

I'm done with letting myself get sooo down over some BS. I hate letting anybody else effect the mood I'm in. I'm going to stand next to what I believe in and what my instincts tell me. This may sound selfish, but I'm looking out for myself now.

Something's missing.

Saturday School tomorrow. Good Night.