Poke Her Face?

This weekend was soo busy, but I'm glad I hung out with people. I'm super excited for senior breakfast tomorrow. It's gonna be awesome! I hope people don't say anything bad about my costume. Haha.

EJ is finally home (: I love seeing him. He's such a good boyfriend. I've been sick since Monday and he's been taking care of me and making me feel better (:

I work a lotttt this week and next week. Yay! More moneyyy =] But I have Saturday off and I reeeally wanna go to the carnival!

I haven't gone to school all week. But I doubt I missed anything. It's almost over! Super excited. 2 months left.

Some people are extremley self centered. Super annoying.

I need to finish my paper!

idk what to title this.

I didn't go to school today after going for 2 and a half weeks. That's pretty good, for someone like me. Haha. So the other day I went dress shopping for Nicole's 18th birthday. I officially hate the Tracy Mall. They don't have shiiit.

I think I might be going to science camp! I'm pretty excited!

EJ comes home Friday for a week. I can't waiiit! I haven't seen him in soo long.

This next week is about to be hella busy. I don't even know how I'm gonna do everything. Blahh!

I have a 2000 word paper do Friday. I should be doing that instead of blogging.

humans suck.

This website has the most amazing/depressing pictures ever.
http://photosthatchangedtheworld.com

I wish I could change the world.

cause i honestly believed in you.

Work was really fun today, surprisingly. I'm gonna miss working at this Cold Stone when/if I leave.

Today I was listening to this really old lady talking to this younger lady talk to her about her life. She was talking about how she was so in love with this guy who was so handsome, but he ended up abusing her and doing crack. And, the younger lady she was talking to was going through something similar. I don't know why, but hearing them talk really touched me. When I'm older, I want to look back and feel my life had meaning. I've always thought that I could do something really amazing for the greater good of the world. Honestly, latley I've been in such a cloud of cynicism and I hate it. Everything used to look so different to me.

I miss hanging out with my friends. I feel like I gave a lot of that up. I'm going to try more to spend more time with them. Especially Amanda and Nicole. I like, never hang out with them anymore and they're my 2 closest friends. I'm sorry.

I'm done with letting myself get sooo down over some BS. I hate letting anybody else effect the mood I'm in. I'm going to stand next to what I believe in and what my instincts tell me. This may sound selfish, but I'm looking out for myself now.

Something's missing.

Saturday School tomorrow. Good Night.

happy saturday.

So yesterday is the first friday I've had off in foreverrr. I hung out with Amanda and went shopping. It was a whole lot of funnn. We never hang out enough.

I was supposed to get up really early, go to saturday school, go to the gym, and go to work. I woke up at like 12:30 and I'm suuuper tired right now. I don't even know why. I'm always super tired and I hate it. I never get to do shit. Blahh!

I'm gonna get something pierced, but idk what. Either my monroe, nose, or tongue.

I spent so much money yesterday. I really, really need to start saving. Or I'm gonna end up being a bum next year =o

I had another really weird dream. I was in some city or something that was abandoned. And then I time traveled back to halloween and it was scary. Idk. It was weird. =/

It seems like EJ won't be home for forever =(. Dangit.

That's itttt.

Amazing Day

Today I went to Sac with EJ's parents. I thought it would be a really awkward car ride, but it wasn't that bad. It's weird how I used to think EJ's mom hated me. But I think she actually really likes me. Ha. I got to see a lot more of Sac than the last time I was there. I really really like it! I feel it suits me well, if that makes sense. I'm glad I got to spend more time with EJ. He's amazing. =]

I've come to terms with a few things latley. I don't get mad at certain things anymore. Yay for balance and rationalizing.

After 15 quarters of high school, I've only got 1 more left. Feels pretty awesome.

So for senior activities, I've decided that I'm not going to Disneyland or Senior Beach Day. Disneyland isn't worth the money, and I don't want to go with a whole bunch of douches. The thought of Beach Day disgusts me. Everyone peeing in the pool, a whole bunch of sweaty people, surrounded by people I don't even like. Ick.

I can't stop listening to The Spill Canvas. I'm gonna ask EJ to gimme one of their albums later.

strawberry banana pancakes.

Today is the funnest I've had in such a long time! So I didn't go to school yesterday and I was walking to my locker and I see Karen and she's like "hey do you wanna go to ihop?" and of course I said yes. We though we were gonna come back for 2nd or at the latest 3rd period, buuut we were just like fuck it, lets just go back to school 5th period. 5th rolls around, and we were just like fuck it! Were not going back! haha. We got free french fries & lemonade, went to blue moon, went to the mall and some random ass park. Oh and I smoked my first cig today haha. Djarum Black! woot!

And on Saturday, I went to Sac with Karen and her fran, and it was funn =] even though we didnt get to go to the zoo.

Welp, today made me feel a whole lot better, which reminds of things. UGH!

k well im getting off this thing!