happy thanksgiving (:

mine was well spent this year.

In about 4 hours I'll be doing some major black friday shopping. I'm pretty stoked, I really want to get a sewing machine and a nice coat. I'll be happy if I can get both. If not, I just plan on hella splurging on clothes. Yeah (:

Looks like I won't be going to see Lady Gaga in December. Hella fucking bummed. :((

I pulled a quick stint of having 2 jobs, but that didn't really last long, but I think I'm gonna start looking for another job again.

Things are great, can't really complain about anything. Now that I stop and think about it, I haven't been this happy with life in a whiiile. I think it's because it's Fall. Haha. Whatever the reason, I'm happy to say that I am honestly happy with my life. And it looks like it's gonna stay this way for a while.

Conan time <3 (:

what i'm thankful for.

in no order.

2009, for being a fucking rollercoaster, and being one of the best, worst, and most exciting years i've lived.

my home, which i used to hate, has now become one of my favorite places to be. i've grown to love home and be content with it's simplicity.

my friends, especially the ones i keep close to my heart.

the sun, sky, and flowers. cuz they make me the happiest.

micheals and barnes and noble and target for the endless supply of free stuff.

my mom, for making me laugh so much and being the most good-hearted person i know. my brother for always having something to talk about and being a chill ass little brother. my sister, who i feel just gets me more than anyone in the family. my dad for keeping everything together, which i know took a lot of strength.

new friends, old friends.

weekday mornings for keeping me sane and giving me peace of mind and something to look forward to.

ciggarette breaks by myself and the walks i go on.

marijuana and all the good things it's brang to my life. tehe.

journals, for giving me a place to vent.

my ipod and stereo for giving me things to think about and without i think i'd die of boredom.

yeah (:

#bestfeeling

Thank twitter for the trending topic.
All the things that make me happy. (:

-Finding happiness in simplicity and everyday occurences.
-Electronic music.
-Being around the people who bring out the best in me.
-Nintendo/Mario games.
-Sunshine, blue skies, and flowers.
-Teenage Riot behavior
-Blissful drunkness
-Thick blankets and hot chocolate in December
-Epitomes
-Finding yourself.
-Happiness in chaos
-Having a really good day after multiple crappy ones, and realizing that life is beautiful, and things really aren't that bad.
-Oprah.
-Old friends. There's nothing more comforting.
-My mom, and her cooking.
-Shared experiences that will be remembered for a life time.
-Inside jokes with your family.
-The smell of clean laundry.
-Finding your place and defining moments.
-Falling asleep thinking of a special person.
-Holding hands, but only if they're warm.
-Painted fingernails.
-Love.
-Friendships that lead to bestfriendships.
-Feeling free, and feeling infinite.
-Good books that I have to share with friends.
-Solitude and being independant.
-Feeling like you're enough.
-Writing in sand.
-Heading back from a road trip, everyone is quiet and half asleep, with soft music playing in the background that makes everyone think.
-Being 18.
-Swinging
-Positive thinking.
-Old pictures, old memories.
-Being so in love with someone it takes 20 minutes just to say bye because you don't really want to leave each other.
-Crazy uncharacteristic nights, because they make good stories.
-Sushi and chopsticks
-Songs that are so good you have to repeat them
-Making things for people's birthday.
-Writing letters
-Writing love letters
-Writing.
-Silences that aren't awkward, cause you're just that good of friends with some people.


Dunno what the point of this was (: Just some things I wanted to write down.

happynovember.

Time flies.

Halloween was pretty fun. It was kinda depressing witnessing the lack of Halloween spirit this year. Almost no houses or businesses were decorated. I wonder why?

I snuck into West High's homecoming rally on Wednesday with some friends. I walked in with all the seniors and it felt really surreal. I never walked in with the seniors at Tracy High's rally, so I kinda made up for it? Ha. Sometimes I wish I would've went to West. I think I would've liked high school a lot more.

I started writing something new. Don't know if it's gonna be good or not, we'll see! I also really want to finish something that I started writing a few years ago but never finished. I've added some things here and there, but I've been completley neglecting it. I think that's my new goal; finish that piece! Ha.

I'm looking for a second job, or a new job entirely. Cold Stone isn't cutting it.

I've been listening to a lot of old cd's. It keeps me up at night and I wonder.