fuck you very much.

Good ass week. (: Don't feel like typing everything that happened. Except that Jemina Pearl mean mugged us, that bitch. She's crazy for thinking we were gonna pay $14 to see her. Haha. And Kyle's halloween party was epic. And a naked dude gave Alva the stink eye, even though he was naked. And I walked around crowded-ass hometown buffet with only pantyhose and a shirt on. Fuck pants! And the candy store was giving away everything for freee. And being drunk in public is fun. Yeah. (:

So glad I got to relax at home today. I just realized how out of touch I am with everything at home. I really just don't want to deal with it. For the first time, I'm really starting to feel like I want to move out.

Can't wait til Halloweeeen! (:

ticktock.

I've been slaving away working on my Halloween costume for the past couple days. Crazy how I've never really sewn or made anything before, and the first thing I try is this hella complicated costume. Haha. I'm really hoping I finish it by Saturday. I think I'm almost done? Yeah (:

I haven't slept at home for the past 3 days. I like how my dad has been trying to keep tabs on me latley. Really? You didn't parent me for the first 18 years of my life and you want to start now? Nooo way.

Yesterday I registered to Las Po. I'm pretty excited to start going back to school! I'm so glad I took a semester off though. eeek I'm excited (:

Tomorrow Alva, AJ, and I are gonna see Jimena Pearl in the city then crashing at AJ's.

It's been a pretty good week (: I love my new friends <3

october is almost over :(

I'm getting lazy with this blog again.

This weekend was eventful. Friday Alva and I bought our fabric for our costumes. I gotta work on miines :o Rene, Alva, Nick and I went to the pumpkin patch later that night. They had a ziplining station and we all went on it! Too bad I was wearing a skirt and probably flashed all the little kids. Haha. "Miss Swan flying through the air!" =D

And last night I went to Sac with Kayron and Aubeezy for our friend's birthdayy. It was pretty sick, met hekka new people and had fun (: We crashed at zach's and he made us noodles and played super mario and toked it all night. Haha.

I love the weather latley. I need some new cute Winter clothes! =D

Sleep time (:

killahh.

So yesterday Alva and I went to Modesto in the middle of a huuuge storm. It was pretty crazy, a few streets were hella flooded. We went downtown and went into the "Beads" store. I would've totally made a sick ass bracelet if i had hella moneys. The "U" fell off the subway sign and the lady working there reminded me of Bon Qui Qui. Fun (: Back in Tracy we went to Mamie's and chilled with the central Tracy crew + others. I don't think I'll ever get tired of her house.

My Halloween costume's gonna be siiick! I can't wait! I reallyyy hope I don't work >=(

Gonna see Where the Wild Things are on Friday with AJ and Kyle. That movie better live up to all its hype or I'm gonna be mad.

I want to writeeeeee. I just have no idea what to write about.

dominos.

Welcoming a new era in life. It's weird, the past month or so I've met so many people and do different things and care about other shit. It's nice. It really feels like a fresh start. To Carl Young, Weed, and the Gays.

Back at Square One. Everything is so messy and complicated to the point where I don't even want to think about it. It's horrible now, but it's necessary. I need to pick up and move on. I can't let this get to me like I've been doing for a while now.

I hit rock bottom tonight. Things can only go up.

I'm trying to tire myself out so I can just sleep and not think.

I wonder if I can make this blog private? Really, I just use it to vent. I don't really want people to read it, but I don't think people do anyways. Hm.

content (:

Last night was needed so bad. I feel like my head is cleared and everything I was upset about dissappeared. It's nice (:

My birthday was pretty awesome too. I loved getting out of Tracy.

I love my friends, so much!

shadowplay.

It's really weird how everything has changed. Looking back just 4 months ago, to now. It's like it's been a complete 360. I don't know :/

My birthday is in 2 days. I don't think it's gonna be anything special.

Mehhh.




You're hot then you're cold.
& it's so confusinggg.

ugh.

fuuuuck everything dude.
forreals.

october is here

I have the worst headache in the world right now.

I've been in a funk latley. A lot of things have been irritating me and I don't even feel like trying. Sorry if I've been mean to you =P Today I actually got to relax though. I love my mom. Let's hope it lasts.

So I'm not going to Lovefest, but I guess I'm going up to Sac Saturday night for some party. Should be interesting.

I don't even know anymoreeee. I try to much.
Mah!