Christmas Eve.

Hm. It's the 5th day of 16 of Winter Break. I'm at home and my mommy has already made plenty of food, which I probably should not be eating. Yesterday I hung out with EJ in the morning. We watched ItLoW. Why is Adam Brody sooo cute? *sigh* X) After I went 'malling' with Adam and Amanda. We watched "Yes Man" which I didn't find funny/entertaining at all. Neither did Amanda because she fell asleep lolol. Stupid Jim Carey. Then we rode the bus to Amanda's house and played Guitar Hero and watched this movie called "After Sex". It was funny. I'd watch it again.

So anyways. December went by way to fast! I don't like it.

I went to work yesterday to turn in my secret santa gift and mines wasn't there yet. I bet you whoever got me forgot about it or didnt get me something or something like that happened, because that is just my luck. Oh well. :)

I don't know if my dad will have a job after this holiday season. This upsets me very much.

:(

Merry Christmas.

Good News! :D

Sooooooo today my mother came into my room and said I had mail. It was in one of those big envelopes and I saw it was from Sac State. I opened it and guess what! I GOT ACCEPTED! WOOOOOOOOOT! I'm suuuuper happy and excited! I didn't think I was gonna get in!

EJ was the first person I called and I'm sure I was making all kinds of high pitched squeaky noises cuz thats how I sound when I'm really excited about something. X) This is veryy good news!

Finals this week are gonna be easy. Today I only had one final, which I finished in half an hour. Tomorrow I only have one final, and then my journalism class is going to la villa! Isn't that sweeet? And then Friday I have one final and one presentation. Awesome, awesome.

And on Friday, baby comes home for a whole monthh! I am so excited. I really am in love with this boy. He brings out the best in me and gives me those feelings in my tummy :D This is gonna be the best month ever.

Gosh, I think im blushing X)

Love.

Today I had a dream. We were walking downtown, arm in arm, my head on your shoulder. The lights lit up the street and the stars were out. I told you how much I missed you and you told me you love me. I could hear your heartbeat as we stood close together in silence. Everything was perfect.

This is the happiest I've been all week.
I miss you so incredibly much.

I hate today.

Ugh. So I've been in a pretty shitty mood the past few days. Not to mention I'm hardcore PMSing (sorry, T.M.I. i know). Every tiny thing gets under my skin and I just wanna punch someone in the face. I'm so stressed with these deadlines and finals and school I just wanna give up altogether. Latley I've been feeling like I have no one to talk to. Everyone's so consumed in their own shit they don't even take a minute to ask me, "So how are YOU today?". I'm always the listener. Never the talker.

Really, I'm just fucking sick of everyone and everything around me. I hate this school. I hate all these stupid people.

I want to get far far away from all you people.

Maybe I'll go be a monk and live all in seclusion. Ha. To bad I'm not religous.

Negative Ned.

So its Tuesday afternoon and I am, once again, at home instead of school. It's a rare occasion when I actually make a full week of school. It's just so routine and boring and I don't feel like I'm getting much out of it to be honest. I mean, all the effort I put into my journalism class is a waste, since 95% of students don't even know we have a school newspaper. My math class is a joke, seeing as our teacher doesn't even teach. Psychology is all just theory that I won't need to recall later in life. And you get the idea. I wish I could just focus on the things that I would want to pursue later and cut the rest of this bullshit. I hate you Tracy High.

Can't these next 2 weeks just fast forward? Please?